Phone Call (7)

This is a transcription of a phone call from 10/22/2015,

Eddy J asked, “How can I meet Los”

(laughing) Other than getting locked up? I’d have to put you on my visiting list, and I’m only allowed 10 adults on the list. I can change it every six months and see different people, but until I get home it would be pretty difficult. I have some awesome fans, but I don’t think I have any fans so awesome as to come to prison just to meet me.

Christopher G. asked, “How hard is it to stay positive in there, knowing you didn't do anything?”

It’s pretty easy for me, because everybody loves me. I’m in a cell where I have my library on my top bunk, I have a little area where my office is, my typewriter, my lockers are full of every kind of food you can think of, from lasagna to roast beef to chunk chicken to every kind of candy in the world. I have a radio that catches all my favorite stations, I have a beautiful flat screen television with basic Direct TV cable, and of course above everything else I have amazing family, and of course I consider fans family, and friends. I get to call my kids to talk to them all day long. I just hung up the phone with Baby Bash, he wants to meet Little Los (that would be Carlos Coy II) and Carly in the studio, because Carlos is starting to make beats now; I talked to Rasheed yesterday.

Beyond all that I’m a writer, and my writing is really good; I take great joy in writing. If all I had was a notepad and a pen in some empty cell, I would still be incredibly happy because I write so impressively, all praise to God. At least, it impresses me. I’m alive, I’m healthy as far as I know, I get visits every weekend, it’s so much love, it’s hard not to be positive. I would have to be blind as a bat and dumb as a dumbbell to not be positive. I don’t think I’ll be here much longer, it’s just…the future is extremely bright. I’ve got so many awesome plans and ideas coming in the future it’s just all lovely. I hope everyone out there is happy and positive, I hope everybody realizes how rich they really are.

Cris S. said, “My homeboy asked " why does spm mainly mention his daughter in his raps and not much about his son" no offense”

That’s a good question; let me see, why do I do that? I guess because she’s my only girl. She reminds me so much of myself. I love all my kids, although Carly and Carlos are the ones that stay closer to me. They constantly write me, send me cards, answer my letters, answer the phone when I call them. I’m much closer to Carly and Carlos than my other kids, but I love all my children very much. I only have one girl, and she’s definitely Daddy’s girl.

Elias M. asked, “As a child growing up, did you ever think you were gunna become a famous rapper? Or be as big as you have become?”

No; I always felt like I was going to be a rich businessman. I would always start off at least one sentence a day with, “When I’m rich...” I was that kid that always would say that, “When I’m rich I’m gonna do this, when I’m rich I’m gonna do that”.  How I expected to get rich I don’t know, but I knew that my mind was sharp. So many teachers told me, especially in elementary, how gifted I was, and smart I was.

Of course, in Jr. High I started getting in so much trouble…You know, when you’re really good at good things people can see your potential, but when you’re really good at bad things, people just think you’re a jerk. They can’t see your potential anymore. I mean, I was really good at being a smart ass in class; anything the teacher tried to say to put me down, I could twist it right back on her and make the whole class laugh, and nobody really saw the potential in that. They just thought I was a jerk, or a messed-up kid. When I would get into arguments with other kids they would talk crap about me, and then when I talked crap about them, I would totally destroy them. I literally had people wanting to kill me because of what I said and how I said it. Nobody ever said, “Wow, Carlos Coy has such a sharp mind, his words are so powerful.” Nobody ever says that when you’re using that stuff for the wrong thing.

 I did have an enormous talent with speech and with writing, but I was using it to get a lot of chicks and gain enemies, and nobody really saw the potential in that. But I knew that I was going to be something because all my elementary teachers told me so. (laughing) So I kinda went on that.

Cris S. asked, “Is most of your music inspired by classic rock?”

My music is influenced by my life, by the life I live. I love classic rock, but I also love classic country I love Hank Williams Jr, “Whiskey-bent and hellbound” “All my rowdy friends” and of course “A country boy can survive”, but really all classic country. I love classic country,  I love classic rock, but I’m a big rap fan too. My music just comes from the heart, every experience, every memory, every neighborhood, every friend, every girlfriend, every enemy, every good situation, every bad situation, it just shows in my music. I never have made music for any funky-ass program director, or anything that I thought somebody might want to hear. I just did what I liked, and thankfully a lot of other people can relate to it.

Cris S. asked, “What does he think of the rapper king lil g and Mr criminal, and about him saying he thinks snow tha product is the best thing he heard in a while, is great to hear cause she absolutely is bad ass and she does tell good stories the songs you heard weren't probably that's style but she has alot of different topics and your right she is funny I have her on snapchat and she has her own show, she funny as fuck”

Well, I can’t recall hearing King lil G or Mr criminal, unless Pocos Pero Locos played them. When I was on Allred I was able to catch Pocos Pero Locos’ radio show and they played a lot of Mexican-American rap artists, but I didn’t always know who they were. I do wish Mr Criminal  and King lil G all the best. I’m sure they’re good, I just never heard their music or don’t know if I’ve ever heard it. I’ve only heard the songs from Snow the Product that Pocos Pero Locos played, and I was just super impressed because she uses multi-syllable rhymes; on top of that her delivery is dynamic and extremely charismatic. I haven’t heard her story telling rhymes, but she, you know, just by listening to her it’s clear that she can do anything she wants on the mike. I think she’s extremely talented.

Aaron N. said, “Do you know some ppl in the car clubs from Bryan/college station ,Tx known as Royal Touch c.c.? I notice your Mary -go- round video your lac had "Royal Touch" on the back of the window, thought it was nice to see you represent Royal Touch c.c. from Bryan/College Station in the Mary go round video.”

Well, if it had Royal Touch car club on it, then the guy who owned that Cadillac was obviously a member. I forgot the guy’s name, but I do remember I broke his hydraulics on that video and he was really cool about it. (laughing) I didn’t have the money to pay him back, and he never asked for it. I hope it was all worth it. All my love AND best wishes to Royal Touch, and whoever that guy was, I’d just like to thank him again for letting me use that car. I had no idea what I was doing when I was hitting those switches, and obviously I blew something, but the video was great so much love to him and all of his club members.

Juvoe P. asked, “Why is Los talking about carolyn and the verses of is? It's not like she making millions using those verses. And not only that, isn't Ortiz or someone responsible for all verses of spm? If it was in Carolyns album, it must've been approved by someone who manages spms music and verses. That's my question. Curious to see if he ever response something similar to this.”

Why wouldn’t I respond to that? You’re right, it’s not like she’s making a million dollars, but I had much bigger plans for those verses and I’m not focusing on Carolyn; I’m focusing on Pain Ortiz. I have to say, even though it might make a few people mad, but I had my sister and her boyfriend helping me, and they’re still helping me with finding exactly how many of my verses were stolen and sold. We’re up to about 50 verses; I didn’t say 15, I said 50. That’s not stealing songs, that’s stealing entire albums. Carolyn plays a very small part in this situation and she really shouldn’t have been the focus the way she’s been, but then it started seeming to me that Carolyn was trying to make herself look completely innocent of any betrayal, and I know for a fact that that’s not true. I know that she did use some unauthorized verses. She recently showed me some letters that I wrote her that shows how I know about some of the verses, but it still doesn’t show me authorizing the 7 or 8 verses that she has across her various projects. Back then, when I was writing her those letters I really wasn’t too worried about a verse here or a verse there, but I wasn’t exactly thrilled with it either. At the same time, I didn’t realize that Pain was selling countless verses and now that I know that, I have to include everything and everyone who was a part of this. Me and Carolyn still talk; she’s forgiven, and even Pain is forgiven, but just because you forgive somebody doesn’t mean that they shouldn’t have to pay for the crimes that they did. I just have to figure it all out.

You’re right, Carolyn isn’t getting rich off of those SPM verses, but I guarantee you I had much bigger plans for that material. I’m not trying to make it seem like I’ve been shot down out of the sky; even though 50 verses is a lot of fucking verses, you know, you can’t shoot me out of the sky. You can’t keep the wetback down; it’s just impossible unless you’re death himself. It’s not that I feel like these people have crippled me but come on, 50 verses is a lot of material. Whoever was a part of it, and I am finding out some interesting people have been a part of this situation, will be known to my fans and I’ll let the fans decide on how they will handle it. It sounds like your supporting Carolyn and I think that’s wonderful. But I promise you that her hands aren’t altogether clean in this situation.

Pablo C. asked, “Carlos, what's the most you spent on anything?”

I put down $300,000 to lease two clubs, and I guess that’s the most I spent at one time.

Moises J. said, “Carlos Coy you wrote this to incandesio and I just want you to elaborate exactly how did it happened (I know you didn't do what they are accusing you of) but I saw this video on YouTube that child molesters in prison get their Dom split I was just wondering. AND NO YOU ARE NOT A CHILD MOLESTER I'm a FAN of yours by the way #FREESPM (About three months ago I was in the dayroom doing some exercises and I busted my head on this steel air condition vent. My head was split open, I needed stitches but all they did was clean it and bandage it. Oh yea Idk if it's possible next year God willing I want to see visit you I'm here in North Carolina but I'm planning on going to Texas to visit Idk if you can make that possible for me to visit you and take pictures and a autograph Your #1 F.A.N Keep Up The Good Work One Day At A Time by the way on a Song Called making you sweat ft lil Rob on the Dope city album did you actually rap with lil Rob in the studio ?”

First of all, thank you for being a fan; that does, of course, mean everything to me. Second of all, what I say happened is what happened. I was in PC when I hit that vent; that vent was low and I shouldn’t have been joggin up under it, but I was able to jog up under it without hitting it, so every morning I would jog and I would go under that vent. I was so used to going under it that I forgot just how low it was, I was going under it without me hitting my head. After weeks and weeks of continuing to jog under that vent, I just forgot how low it was. So, one day I was jogging and I started kicking like the way football players do, lifting their knees real high which makes you bounce more. I ran up under that vent and when I jumped when I was kicking up my knees, I just busted the top of my head.

But dog, come on, that’s kind of offensive to ask if I’m really telling the truth. Think about why you’re a fan and then think about the question you’re really asking, if I’m saying some fraud shit. I hope I’m not sounding rude, but… (laughing) I’ve never even heard anybody disrespect me with their mouth, much less anything else. Now I’m in a program where it’s 36 of us and it’s just nothing but love, dog. If somebody wants to dance I’ll be happy to dance, you know; it’s nathan. But pretty much everybody in this system knows I was railroaded, except for haters who hated me even before this bullshit case.

Alex H. said, “I would want to know who is still trill or real in the dope house family ?? Please i would love if he answered that question”

Well, trill, um… I’ll have to look in the Hip-Hop Dictionary to find out exactly what trill means. As far as real, I mean, it’s the Dope House Family; everybody’s real, but some people make mistakes. Pain’s bitch-ass, he got addicted to opiates and betrayed me in the worst way. He had to pay for his probation fines and I’m assuming that he took care of those fines, which was in the thousands, with some of the money he made. But, you know, addiction can happen to anybody; I can’t condone what he did, and it’s hard for me to stand up for him because I’m the one he stabbed in the back but, like I said, if I didn’t forgive friends I wouldn’t have any. It’s just something I got to do and just… keep moving on.

Christopher G, said, “Ask him if there is any new update on screwston slow leaner”

Actually, we have the hard drives for all that material and it’s tons of material, tons of files. Pain knows exactly where that project is but, right now, Pain is estranged. He’s the Estranged Engineer of Dope House. Me and Jose Morales are just going through all the files and we’re finding countless things, but we haven’t stumbled across ‘Slow Learner’ yet. We haven’t even traveled through half of what those hard drives have, but we have found a lot of great stuff and there’s a lot of great stuff on the way so just be ready.

Cris S. asked, “What does he think about all the attacks in paris?”

You know, obviously, I thought about that possibly happening in America, which is pretty scary. Paris is an advanced and civilized area, just like Houston is, or any other city; it could happen anywhere, and it’s just very sad. I thought about… what if it had been my children in that building watching that rock’n’roll group, I think they were called the Eagles of Death Metal. That place was full of people’s kids, whether they’re 30 or 40 they’re still somebody’s kid. I tried to imagine how they felt, especially the people that lost their children and their brothers and sisters and maybe even parents. I’ve always believed in forgiveness, I never want to be somebody who hold unforgiveness in my heart because that’s like holding poison; but how hard would that be to forgive if that was your kid, or your mom, or your brother or sister?

I hope we can find a way to stop it; I don’t understand why the peaceful Muslims don’t step in and speak up, and let the world know that they don’t condone, you know…it’s like all the peaceful Muslims that say radical Islam is not what their religion is about, why aren’t they condemning these extremists? I just think that if Islam really is a peaceful religion, the real Muslims should speak up and start standing up against it. I don’t see a lot of that. It sometimes makes me wonder if they’re down with it but just don’t got the nuts to do it themselves, or what. It’s just messed up. I hope we figure out how to stop it. I’ve heard a lot of politicians say the only way to stop it is to destroy the people who do it, and it’ll probably be an ongoing war until… until Jesus comes, I guess. I just hope it doesn’t come to America.

Jaime S asked, “Are you bringing back Pimpstress, Powda, or Grimm back in your albums? We need more of them..”

Yeah, I would love to bring Pimpstress, Powda, and Grimm… I talk to Grimm on a regular basis, right now he’s working on his solo album. He’s pretty busy with that. Pimpstress and Powda, they’re a little bit more distant from me. I haven’t heard from them in a while, but I’d like to reconnect with both of them. Powda is probably still in Galveston, and Pimpstress is probably still in Austin. I guess I’ll try to see if anybody knows how to contact them, see what they’ve been up to. They’re both really talented, though, I can’t wait to connect with them again.

Victor S. asked, “Any new artist going to be on your next album???”

Yeah, maybe Carly…Carly Coy… AKA D.O.T.S. (Daughter of the S.O.N.) Maybe a couple of other new people, but I just wouldn’t know at this time. I’ll definitely keep everybody updated as things develop. Uh, I’m going to write a song for Incandesio and see if she can do it. Well, let me ask her right now.

Incandesio: You’re joking; you don’t really want me to include that last line, do you?

No, I’m serious! You have to write your response, Incandesio. (laughing) Are you willing to wreck the mike one time?

Incandesio:  

I have to say no.You think it would be funny,

but a half-ass flow won't bring your fans running.

No one’s gonna buy your music 
if it turns out when they choose it

they get a white girl as ‘street’ as

Huey Louis when he’s Cruisin’.

Dear Family (24)

A Letter To Mari

11/10/2015

My Ghetto Girl,

            The situation with Pain selling my verses, and all the drama it’s created with people who are close to me, has saddened me. I’ve been tough with Carolyn, because she should have simply apologized for the wrong she did. Instead, she’s trying to act like she kept it 100 with me. What’s true is that I’ve kept it 100 with her, putting her on every track that needed a female vocalist. So many people asked me why I put her on everything, and I said because she’s family. You said, in a letter to me, “You should not be petty like you were. All the music you all have made together all the work you all done together, you are going to make her out to be the bad person.”

            I’m only explaining her betrayal, and I’m still investigating what could be even more betrayal. People have said she solicited everything from SPM beats to verses. Of course I forgive her, just like I forgive Pain. But my people will know, they will be told, they will be a part of my life because they are the ones who feed everything I love. DHR is a transparent company because “fans” stands for F.A.N.S. I’m not making anyone out to be anything to be anything other than what they made themselves out to be. And if someone is denying the truth, I won’t let my people be deceived. And, no, Carolyn and I didn’t make music together. I wrote what I wanted her to sing, I told her how to sing it, and she sung it till I was satisfied with it. I wrote her some dope-ass shit to sing, that’s why the hooks on my projects outshine the hooks on her shit. The verse she rapped on “Dope House Family,” I wrote. The skitt her and Pain do before that verse, I wrote. All the skitts she does when she imitates those accents, I wrote. I’m the Crack Child, my love, and if I wanted to, I could make you a successful artist, or your cousin, or the chick down the street. Truth can sound boastful but I’m not bragging. I’m explaining the power of crack.

            Now, look, I told you that my problem is not with Carolyn, it’s with Pain. He’s the one selling my material. But she knew he was selling unauthorized verses cause she told me, “I tried to tell him to stop!” yet she’s singing on some of those same unauthorized verses. As upset as I am with Pain, I also understand that addiction will cause a man to sell his own son’s asthma inhaler. The chick I fucking blew up like a firecracker that took my homeboy’s finger. That kind of betrayal is tough to swallow.

            Maybe you think it’s “petty” but it’s far from. And I’m writing you this letter so that you can understand. On your letter you said, “Everything you are always telling me not to do you just did.” No, baby. In fact, I still talk to Carolyn. But she hurt herself because I’m not going to let people do wrong and then get rewarded for it. There must be a price to pay, and I’ll let the fans decide that price. Like I told Carolyn, “I can write you a song next week that’ll blow you up like never before.” That’s the power of crack and only God can take it away.

            I’m aware of this beef you’ve got going with Thomas. I told him that his words carry weight because he’s with my sister and if he’s going to comment on my behalf it must be 100 percent player. We have to show our people how to get through life without stooping down to a hater’s level. You’ll stay stuck on that level because the word is full of haters. I don’t know who’s hating on who, or why the hell you guys are talking shit to each other. But it’s no way to live. If you don’t like the dude, cut him out of your life. If he’s a bad person he has two possible futures with me: He changes, or I disassociate myself. It’s that  simple.

            Well, baby girl, since this is a letter on spmaftermath, I shall be leaving our people with an ice cold forty. I’ll write you more later.

“Will P. Spray”

Another Cold Forty

You can call me John Shotty, I will call you A. Snitch

cause you called the police, it was there on page six

I be wearing K-Swiss, you be wearin gay kicks

“Los, that commercial said that you should never say this!”

Oh, where that strange kid is playing mobile games with

that other kid and said, “That was gay!” then the waitress

told’im that his statement , was hideous and tasteless

and said, “Not in my place!” as if the shit was racist?

you could have a gay sis, ain’t no need to stay pissed

tell her that you love her it don’t matter if she hates dicks

even if she dates chicks, squeezes one of Kate’s tits

far as I’m concerned, she can lick fifty-eight clits

Let me hit the main switch, take you back to dayshift

no more of this late biz, where lesbians go ape shit

love me for my greatness, please excuse my anguish

all the fuckin pain which influences my language

music is my matrix, tell me bout ya favorites

nigga like me hittin homeruns with bass hits

even in the snake pits, kill’em with the same gifts

I would be the realest even if I had some fake lips

bodies in the blankets, hollows in the stainless

what dat boy Chingo say? “Someone please splain dis!”

Welcome to the “H” pimp, where we screw the playlist

boys from another town swearin that my tape skips

hit the club, “Hey, Miss, would you like to make twins?”

I be pullin Trinas, to Sophias, to the Tay Swifts

sippin on the grape sip, trippin on the plane trip

if I don’t sell then it’s back to the cake mix

this where the cain flips, this is why I stay rich

pay fa momma’s tummy tuck, pay fa granny’s face lift

no I’m not in gangs still I’m cool with what you claim it’s

love till you plex, now ya layin in ya brain bits

look behind the gray tint, that’s where Will Spray sit

“What’s ya middle name, Los?” Putiminagravequick

Swangaz on da spacewhip, presidential frame kit

make a jacka feel his own candy-red paint drip

ladies on the stage strip, as I make it rain grip

call me Chubby Checka cause the bottles and the Jane twist

you can be the game’s prince, that ain’t where my name fits

“How is you the king, Los?” How da fuck I ain’t, bitch…….

Los

Phone Call (6)

This is a phone call between myself and SPM from 11/8/2015. Most of the questions are pulled from Facebook, not the blog comments, as those will eventually be sent to him by mail. As always, I apologize for any transcription errors.

Robert D. said, " There seems to be mixed emotions within the Dope House, SPM fans and family. There's a lot of trash talk and catty remarks back and forth between the main people pushing this issue publicly for the world to see and its actually causing hate between fans and promoters because some people say she (Carolyn) did sell verses and some are saying Los is being played by his closest people and doesn't know it. What does SPM feel in his heart about the situation? Has he spoken one on one with Carolyn? A visit perhaps to get her real side of the story. It's hard to know exact facts when you don't have the world at your fingertip like we do so Los has to rely on what he's hearing out here and hope it to be true and not just hazing and hateful, non proof allegations. I know this is long but nobody else has posted any questions on this post or the last one asking questions so I'm chiming in. I want to believe Los more than anyone else but its hard to really know because he doesn't really know ya know? What will it take to put all the cards on the table and get the whole truth out there without the bitter, obvious, high school name calling hate between his family? What will be the outcome if it is true? Also if it isn't and the accusers were just jumping the gun? Give us (the fans) a clear message on what you want from us as a family to do for you or for Carolyn if anything at all in this difficult time.

Stay up Los,

-Rob D-"

As far as if Carolyn did anything wrong or not, she most definitely did. She used one unauthorized verse that I found out about. She knew that she was not supposed to use it, and I warned her and Jaime not to EVER take a verse without permission. You just don’t do that. I said, “I’m going to let it go”, and then she asked me if she could use material from a song called “I Remember”, I told her no. A couple of weeks later she asked again and I said no, because I have a lot of plans for that song. Now I don’t know how long “I Remember” has been out, but she used it anyway. So, that right there is enough.

Like I said, I didn’t help Carolyn with her music career; I gave her a music career. I did it because I chose her to be a part of the Dope House Family. She makes a living; she eats, pays her rent, buys a car, buys her clothes, and enjoys the life of a, you know, fairly successful artist because of all that I’ve given her. I’m not going to tell you that she would be where she’s at if she had never met me, ‘cause that simply is not true. I’m not trying to brag, or anything like that; I’m just speaking the truth as I know it. Now, for you to fuck over someone just one time, that’s one time too many. Someone who’s been loyal to you, who painted his projects with your voice, who has given you this career, fucking over a person that has done that for you just one time is way too much.

So, if your question is, ‘Do I know if Carolyn did anything wrong?’ of course I absolutely know. She told me that she talked to Andrew and that she got him to recant his story about her selling my verses. Well, I never said that Carolyn sold anything to Andrew. I said that Andrew told me that it all started because she posted a message on her Facebook about, if anyone was interested in an SPM feature, to contact her. Now I saw the conversation with her and Andrew, because I told her to send it to me, and she asked him the same question, and that’s “Why did you say I was selling SPM verses?” And his response to her was, “I never said that you sold me any SPM verses, I only said that you set up the deal.”  So she tried to change the whole issue, but I told her that I’m going to forgive her because if I didn’t forgive friends for fucked up things they do, I wouldn’t have no friends. Sometimes people fail you. Sometimes your own mother will fail you. That’s just life.

As far as when she’ll feature on more SPM projects, I’m not sure. But she’s already on certain tracks that are destined to release. One day I was talking to her a few months ago and we were talking about this very subject, about Pain selling verses. I was upset with her because this is when I found out about the “I Remember” song. And she started crying, and said “I tried to tell him to stop.”  I said, “So you knew that he was selling my verses, why didn’t you tell me?” and she said “Because this was the time when you were going through that medical condition and I didn’t want to put any more stress on you.” In my eyes that’s a lame excuse; to not let me know that a guy is selling my material? Because she thinks it’ll save me pain? I just don’t buy it. As far as what other things she’s done that’s still being investigated, but in my eyes she’s already done too much. I’m still going to forgive her because she’s not the source of the problem.

The source was Pain, and he was selling so much stuff and nothing was happening to him. I believe, and again this is what I believe, that Carolyn’s broke-ass jumped in on the action, but that’s yet to be proven. What is proven is that she has knowingly used unauthorized material. Some people say that a leopard don’t change their spots; I say that it’s possible, but highly unlikely. Thank you for your question, it was a great question.

Josue asked, “My question is, why is this all coming out now and not when Carolyn dropped that "Medicine" album which was like 3 fucking years ago or so. Shit she even has a damn tattoo of SPM on her back so I don't see how she could betray him. But if Los said he didn't want her to put "stuff" on her albums then that means she knew what she was doing. Shits all fucked up”

            Of all the verses that Carolyn has, I will admit I may have told her she can have one.  I don’t owe Carolyn anything; there’s no reason for me to give her anything, but I’m going to be fair and say that although I doubt it, I may have given her one verse. What I did do, is give her the song ‘Brave’ and I gave her that song because I felt bad that I hadn’t given her verses that she had asked me for in the past. So I figured I would give her this one song, since I never gave her anything else. Now, I found out about her having some of my verses on ‘Medicine Girl’ and I asked my brother to let me hear them but I was never able to, so I never knew what verses they were. I also wanted to know what verses pain used for ‘Dope City’ because I heard that he not only used verses, but entire songs that he put together.

Again, once finding this stuff out I had a choice to tell everybody that I’m done; to tell Pain, to tell Carolyn, that I’m done with them, or keep the family together. You have to understand that I’ve been doing a lot of forgiving. To this day I still don’t know the exact verses that are on “Dope City” or the exact verses that are on Carolyn’s albums. There may have been a time when I was able to hear some of it, or a little of it, but during that time I was completely focused on something else and didn’t have time to worry about scavengers. But I would not have given that many verses to my own daughter.

What can I do? Jaime’s the one giving these verses away. It’s very hard for some struggling artist to say no to material that will guarantee album sales. So I just try to understand. But now that I’m starting to get news of all these other verses being sold for 7, 8 hundred dollars, sometimes 5 hundred, and I’m hearing news that Carolyn was involved in some of those deals, it’s frustrating to say the least. But I’m still in the business of forgiving.

 I want to address a letter that Marisol Garay wrote me. She said, “…and as far as Morning High,(Morning High being the title of a song), I think you are just not realizing that if she had your permission, which I am almost sure she at least let you know, you should not be petty like you were.” Well, I care about Marisol, and that’s why I want to take the time to answer her concerns about this situation. Marisol is very important to me, and very important to our movement and I can’t let her believe that I’m being petty, I just…My music, every single word, every single line, every single syllable, is treasure to me. In no way do I consider it petty, and so, I don’t…I want you to know that I’m an artist, so I can understand your position. But when it comes to music, I don’t think me and you see it the same way if you think this is petty.

 There’s another very important thing I want to explain to my girl Marisol. You asked me, “Why did you put out Jaime’s business like that? I know you don’t owe him nothing, but that was low.” Well, beautiful, what I did was not low at all, and you should know that I’m a player as pure as they get. The reason why I spoke about Jaime’s addiction was because I wanted people to know that Jaime wasn’t just some snake stealing my music because that’s what snakes do; no, I wanted to show people that it was an addiction, an addiction that many millions of people can fall into. He got surgery on his jaw and began to get chronic pain and ended up addicted to opiates.

Someone in addiction will pawn their grandmother’s wooden leg. They’ll steal their kid’s toys and pawn them, so why should I be spared? Addiction makes victims out of everyone and when a person needs his or her drugs they’ll do just about anything to get them. I wanted people to know that Jaime needs help, not an ass-whippin’, or worse. I wanted people to help Jaime, not hurt him and sometimes even prison is a blessing when it comes to saving lives. I’ve given Jaime money to redo his surgery twice. They used the wrong sized screws in his jaw, and what happened to his jaw is a whole other story that I need to explain.

 I sent Jaime to pick up one of my homeboys in 2000.  My homeboy was mad because I left him at the strip club and I guess he ran out of cash, which that is the worst thing that can happen to a baller at a strip club. Jaime told my homeboy “Look, I don’t know what’s going on, Carlos just told me…” and that was it. Arnold punched him and shattered his jaw. I’ve always felt bad about that incident but I had no idea, not even in my wildest imagination, could I have imagined Arnold shattering Jaime’s jaw. But that’s what happened in 2000. Now Jaime won’t go get another surgery, he would rather pop pills for the rest of his life. His internal organs are already functioning at poor levels, so he’s basically dying; selling anything he can, and he needs to be saved. So remember, beautiful, that everything I do, even when it’s making someone pay, it’s always laced with love because that’s what true players do. You said a few other things on this letter that I’ll just talk to you about whenever I write you.

Aaron N. said, “My question is who was the first one to complain about who got spm verses ? I mean we live in 2015 anyone can get they hands on anything, and it's all over the internet. I mean we all love to hear New spm verse or song. I don't see a single fans complaing about his music except haters. In my opinion I bump his music everyday... But I understand where los is coming from it's like his verses is on all these unknown rappers that I don't listen to, but the fact is los not getting anything out of the artist album that being sold. Its like putting your idea out their and not getting credit for it... That's just my thoughts..

My sister, I think, was probably the first person to let me know that Jaime had recently sold a new verse and that’s what kinda triggered it because I said, “He’s back at it.” I had been getting letters from people, saying that they got verses. Jaime’s deal was different because I forgave him 3 different occasions for the verses on “Dope City”, for the verses he gave to Carolyn, and for three verses that we had originally given to Happy Perez so that he could redo the beat. Those three verses were sold by Jaime to three different people, and after that incident I told Jaime I was fed up. He said “Well, Happy Perez already released the song on the internet, so it was already leaked. So I just sold the verses since they were already out.”

 Basically he’s making victims out of fans who were buying these verses, thinking that they’re the sole owners of the verse when in reality, they’re buying stolen merchandise. I was upset about these three verses but I forgave Jaime because, once again, I needed him and I did not want to break up the family; I didn’t think it was worth it. But I found out he was back at it, more so than ever, and my sister was the first to make me aware. I’ll send you Jaime’s letter so that you can see exactly what he wrote me about what he was doing. It’s not about me not making any money; these verses have plans for them, and everything I’ve heard is not anywhere as good as what those verses could have been.

Noe F. said, “I JUST WANNA SAY DNT BELIEVE A WORD FROM TEE CARROLL PERIOD THERES A REASON NOBODY FROM THE VALLE FUKS WIT DAT FOOL MENTION HIS NAME TO ANYBODY FROM DA VALLE N THEY WILL TELL U HE BURN HIS OWN NAME DWN HERE BY RIPPIN ARTIST OFF BEING PERVERTED TO FEMALES HE AINT WELCOMED DWN HERE PERIOD #DROPONSIGHT”

Well…What can you do, bro? This is the man that my sister is with. I know for a fact that he respects her, I know that he’s good to her son, I know that he loves her, and I know that he treats her well. I told him just a few days ago that, because he’s with my sister, he’s going to have access to a lot of my people; my family, AKA fans, so inevitably he’s representing me. All I said was that I do not want to hear him calling anybody names, or being nasty or rude to anyone. That is not the way I want to be represented. I want to show our people how to handle hatred with love.

My situation with Carolyn, my situation with Pain…you can call Carolyn right now and you can ask Pain about our last conversation; I told them that I loved them, but you can’t let a kid eat candy all day long, and you can’t let people run over you and take advantage of you, because you’re not doing THEM any favors by letting them think that’s okay.

This thing will blow over soon enough. Carolyn knows what she did and what she didn’t, Pain definitely knows what he did, and I am going to handle it with love. I expect anyone who represents me, that’s Marisol Garay, that’s Pablo Time Nunez, that’s Carlos Martinez, and all of you, I want you to show the world that nothing is more powerful than love. As far as Thomas…when a man came to Jesus and said “Look, I done forgave this guy 7 times. How many more times do you want me to forgive him?” and Jesus said “Forgive him 7 times 70.” Okay, now Jaime has betrayed me many times because of his addiction, but I doubt it’s anywhere close to 490 times. What Jesus was saying is that people are going to push you off that plane. People are going to push you off that boat. People are going to push you off that cliff, but love will be your parachute, love will be your life preserver, love will be your hang glider, love will win.

 Forgiveness is one of the most important fruits on the tree of love just as humbleness is, just as understanding is, just as patience is, just as being non-judgmental is. I’m not saying you don’t blow nobody’s brain out if they break in your house in the middle of the night, but you damn sure don’t judge that person. I’m not saying you let people run over you I’m just saying sometimes love is tough out of necessity.

Paul P. said, “Good morning. So would love to ask Spm a question regarding whats going on. So yesterday i was on Sylvia coy profile and i commented on a post she posted i have even told her im a big fan of what her family has done and that i have nothing but love and respect for them etc. But anyways i made a comment on her post and she replied and so i commented again and i believe she didnt like what i posted she deleted her comment that she made that I replied to so now it seems like i was speaking to myself not only did she delete that but she also deleted the main post so its like it didnt existed. And she also deleted me and blocked me from her profile. She was not the only one to delete a comment they made but also that guy Thomas deleted a coment of his that someone replied .To me theres something more going on besides what they are saying. In my opinion they have something to do with whats going on and is the main reason why they are pointing fingers to cover them selfs. So my question to Spm is due to some of these things does he believe there might be more that hes not being told regarding the situation? And i was not the only one blocked and deleted of there profile i spoke to another person who had similar opinions as mine. Good thing i screen shot the conversations because i had a feeling they were going to delete the comments and block me from the profile”

          Well, brother, I don’t know exactly what your comment was. I don’t know why you were deleted, but I can tell you one thing; I spill my guts on SPM Aftermath. When I write an important letter, I send it to Incandesio and when I want to answer yoos-guy’s questions, I go to SPM Aftermath. This is where, if you’re going to hear from me, this is where 90% of everything I say through social media goes directly to. So, if you like Sylvia, if you like Thomas, try to get back in. If it means a whole lot to you to be on their page, try to find out what went on. But of course you know, and I say this with all respect bro, but I have way too much stuff I have to work on to further investigate your complaint. With that said, I’m really sorry that happened, and I’m sending seven years of bad luck to whoever did that! (laughing)

Incandesio asked, “Your sister posted a phone call without your knowledge, did you have any comments about it?”

I’m glad you asked that question, because I’m actually extremely disappointed about that conversation. I think that some of the stuff that was talked about has nothing to do with the situation that I’ve been addressing, and I apologize to everyone for having to hear some of the stuff that was said. I had no idea…my sister said that she just wanted to bring more attention to the situation, so that she can collect more information. She said that it worked, but I very sternly told her to please never do that. My sister is the only person helping me in this matter, and I need her because this is a very serious matter, but that was something that I have to apologize for. I don’t think I said anything wrong, I just said that I had fixed Carolyn’s teeth, but it, uh…it wasn’t easy for me to listen to.

Before we end, can I just get a shout-out to the guys who held up the ‘free SPM’ sign at the wrestling match? That got a lot of attention, and I thought it was pretty awesome. Thank you.

(End of phone call)

In our last conversation, SPM and I discussed a verse that I didn’t understand, about the definition of ‘G’. I thought I might ask him about a piece of the Cold 40 printed on the liner notes of Son of Norma, but I wanted to give y’all a shot at educating me first:

            Anger tearing at me like a pit do a crimson mut

            Mom say I got the gift, but she never mentioned what

            could it be what kept her up, arguing with Death and Luck

            cards, she said “Neva touch”, damn I think I said too much

If you know what it means, leave me an explanation! Remember that the comments are moderated, so it might take a few hours to show up.

Phone Call (5)

This is a phone call between myself and SPM from 11/1/2015. As always, I apologize for any transcription errors.

Anonymous asked, "Los, Carolyn is also selling Dope House lighters and wood pendants, Spm shirts, Son of Norma cds with her autograph. Did you know about that? or is she stealing here too?"

Um, no, I didn’t know about the lighters. I specifically asked her what she was selling, and she said all that she was selling was locs. I said, “Weren’t you selling t-shirts also?” and she said, “I was, but no, I’m not anymore.” She told me nothing about lighters. I did tell her and I told a lot of people that I wanted to sell those; Dope House Records lighters, and all kinds of merchandise. But, I want to do original designs. I don’t want to just buy generic lighters and locs and have them stamp ‘Dope House Records’ on them.

If I’m going to make locs it’s going to be an original design. Even if it’s an expensive endeavor, I would rather sell $75 locs that are dope, that have our own original twist to them, than $15 generic locs. I know that I would rather buy $75 locs that are nicer, that are the best quality. So, you can expect some DHR merchandise in the near future. I’m not sure of Carolyn’s future with DHR, so I can’t neither condemn nor condone what she sells at this point. But thank you for letting me know that she’s selling lighters, because that was an idea that I’m sure she heard from me.

David R. said, “Hey Carlos Im glad your doing good. Ive been keeping you in my prayers Brother. You might not remember but I use to help your dad out with the Inventory, Flea Markets, Concerts and etc...back in 2000-2003. My Comment: I never liked him, always had a bad vibe around him. I could never figured out what yall saw in him. Sure he had a few good beats but if paid close attention. Almost all of them sounded the same. At the time I was around Dope House there was only One cat in particular who kept it real and stayed loyal and That Person is Block of Rock. He always seemed like the under dog but has great talent. Why not have him help out on your next upcoming projects. About the Carolyn thing its a real bitch move on her part too. Now that i think about it back in the days when Myspace was popular she had posted something about selling authentic spm beats. From 500 and Up. Cant recall if Verses was mentioned. Did you know about that?”

            No, I didn’t know about those Myspace posts. But we’re in business, and business isn’t always a pretty thing. Sometimes bad things happen; sometimes bad people do bad things, sometimes good people do bad things, sometimes bad people do good things. As far as the extent of what Carolyn has done, that is still being investigated. I can tell you for an absolute fact that I did not authorize all those SPM verses that she has. I wouldn’t give my verses to my grandma, much less a girl that I done so much for already just by making her famous to my fans.

But Jaime, he’s in the world of addiction and he’s been in this world for over 14 years. I’ve given him money to get the surgery that he needs so that he doesn’t have to live on pain pills, I’ve offered rehab, but he seems to want to live out his days in this fashion, and it’s very sad because his internal organs are already functioning at an unhealthy level. I can be more specific, but I’ll just say that you can’t keep popping pills for 14 or 15 years and not be profoundly affected by them. He’s selling my verses without any care for repercussions, only the knowledge of knowing that he’ll be able to get more “medication”. That’s what addiction does, it gives you tunnel vision, but you can’t just victimize a bunch of people who are thinking they’re buying something legitimate. You can’t just take people’s money like that, and to do it so blatantly, without a care in the world. It’s like he wants to be stopped. I think deep inside, he wants to be stopped. He knows he needs help and I think it would be ultimately a blessing for him to take a vacation in the county or state jail for all the theft and fraud that he’s committing.

My brother’s best friend, John Hernandez, is in a casket today because he was never caught drinking and driving over three times, where he would have to do a year in the county jail because he never, God forbid, ran into some car or hit some pedestrian, or did something that his alcoholism would have caused. So, now he’s dead. Sometimes a little jail time is an incredible blessing. And I’m not only putting this news out there to save my intellectual property, but also to save Jaime’s life and even further victims.

Ricardo R. Said, “Hope your doing good fam, been a big fan for many many years and still bump your music everywhere I go nonstop, shit I'm listening to it right now as I write this at work 4:11am listening to never change! Anyways your scheduled to be released like 2024 or some dumb shit like that and I heard you say something about jane doe saying her mom's made her lie? I remember reading the same shit online a few months shit maybe a few years back so if we are all hearing this why can't we use this against her to get our family (you) out??? It just doesn't make sense....”

           

I’m not sure why the girl said what she said; I honestly don’t know if her mother put her up to it, or if she really dreamt it, like she spoke about that being a possibility in her testimony. Possibly she experienced something like that, and somehow it translated into me being the perpetrator in some twisted way in her brain, which was ill in ways that doctors described as phonophobia, photophobia, anxiety, possible hallucinations… but I’ve heard the same things that you’ve heard, that she said her mother put her up to it. I don’t know if that’s true; I’m in prison, I’ve never visited her chat rooms or wherever it was that she supposedly posted this. I think that if we approach the situation the right way, we may be able to have her recant the story.

We have an investigator working on my case in general, and that wasn’t part of the immediate strategy. But now even that investigator is inactive since my brother went to prison, and he supposedly can only answer to my brother because my brother was the one that paid him. He can’t answer any of my questions, as crazy as that is. I think that if we can get a new story from her or some kind of admittance of anything false she said in trial, then I think we can utilize that for some kind of an appeal.

But even when people have recanted their stories, I don’t know if this is true, but I’ve heard that they’re accused of being influenced by something or someone to recant them and the courts choose to believe what they first said and not what they’re trying to say now. Even if she said, “Everything was a lie”, it’s still not a guarantee that it’s going to work out for me. It’s tough, man. Once you go to prison…It’s easy, it’s easy as hell to slip into a prison, but it’s hard to get out.

Robert D. said, "I know prison is full of talent. Have you met anyone in prison that you would consider doing music with or featuring them on your album in the free world once you're released? 

Stay up Los, "

            I’m not so sure prison is full of talent. I’ve met much more talent in the free world. There’s a lot of guys in here that believe that they’re going to get out and become stars, but, I guess some people don’t really know what dope is and what dope’s not. They really believe that they have it, but in my opinion there’s a million other rappers that are just as good and only point .001 percent of all rappers actually become successful, and you have to know if you’re in that .001 percent. If you mistakenly think you are, then it’s clear that you don’t understand what dope is.

I hear guys telling me all the time, “I know I’m better than the stuff I hear on the radio.” I shake my head and say, “Look man, you can’t compare yourself to the sorriest stuff you hear on the radio and think that’s why you’re going to make it.” Some people get lucky, they come up with a catchy hook that society seems to cling to; they come up with a catchy tune that resonates with society, and they win the lottery. But you can’t depend on luck. You have to build your skills up to a level that’s undeniable, and I’ve heard nobody undeniable in prison.

Robert D. said, “Carolyn and Pain double crossed Dope House. I never would have saw that coming. Keep your head up Los.”

            All I can say is I’m thankful for your love, and thankful for your support. I’m kind of speechless as far as what to say. Carolyn: still investigating. Pain: in a world of addiction. I’ve seen men steal their own mother’s television because of addiction, so who am I to be spared? It happens, and I’ve got to handle it in the most appropriate way I can.

Angela N. said, “I could have told you that. She's always needed SPM to market and sell her shit. Not surprised at all....never liked the broad. I mean...what's the name of the website she uses to sell her product? Mmmmhmm....and what does she make money off of? SPM named products. Been saying this all along. All these people making money off his name while he seing none of it. I don't know.....Dope House isn't following through on the business end. You can only blame so much of it on Pain and CR....who's watching out for LOS?

            That’s a very good point, and I have to say that there’s some kind of coward gene that runs in my family. My brother has found countless people selling bootleg versions of SPM, on the internet and in brick-and-mortar locations, and has never brought any of them to justice. We’ve been so submissive when it comes to people using our name, selling our music, that it’s like a free-for-all.

But what Jaime has done, and may be still doing, is selling unauthorized, unreleased intellectual property. Most of it’s not even fit for Dope House fans because of quality and lyrics that just aren’t crack, which has made me look mediocre and THAT deeply bothers me. So, now, I need your help, my family, who I also call fans, to help me find every single person who has this unauthorized material to come forward and tell their story. To tell how much money they spent on this scam, and to start making examples out of people; starting with the person who betrayed me the most, and that would be Jaime Armando Ortiz, aka Pain. 

Arnold and Daisy T asked, “Spm made Carolyn Rodriguez biting from the hand the feed you smh and yez selling shade shot glasses t shirts etc with the free spm if it was to say Carolyn Rodriguez won't sell nuthing and she knows it sorry but the truth spm has family give them a percentage or something”

I’m not worried about making a percentage from peanuts, ‘cause all she’s making is peanuts. I don’t really trip because she was a part of the Dope House family and I know that people are just trying to survive, but I absolutely agree with you. I allowed her to sing the choruses that I wrote for her to sing, that I told her how I wanted her singing them; and she sung them. Is she a Whitney Houston? Is she a Beyonce? Is she a Mariah Carey? Of course not, and far from it. But she could sing on tune, and she was close to Pain and Pain was close to me, so I chose her to be my vocalist. And again, I agree with you, nobody would know who Carolyn Rodriguez was; she wouldn’t be touring like she’s touring, she wouldn’t be making a decent living like she is in this music industry if it wasn’t for the doors I opened up to her, and for her. I introduced her to all of you, to all of my fans.

Even when y’all were tired of hearing her, even when y’all were begging me not to put her on all these songs, I still did it because I’m very loyal to the Dope House family. That’s why I’m so upset about all these things that I’m hearing. I already forgave both her and Pain for using a verse that I didn’t authorize. Then, she asked if she could use a part of the song called ‘I Remember’, and I told her no. I specifically told her no because I had other plans for that song and for that hook. Just now I’m learning that she did use that song, and just now I’m learning that she has all these SPM verses that she’s trying to say I told her she could have; I wouldn’t give those verses to my own grandmother. That’s all the material that I have, I only have so much material. I want it perfected, and I want it done right, and delivered to you in the best quality. I wouldn’t just give it away. So, if she’s trying to say that what she’s being accused of has no basis at all, and that it’s totally false, then she’s lying. She’s lying because she knows that all her fans are SPM fans, and if she betrayed SPM, then she betrayed his fans as well.

But what can I do? I don’t hate her; I’m not mad at her, in fact I love her, but what she has done is dead wrong, and I’m going to find out the extent of just how dead wrong she was. The reason she has used at least some of that unauthorized material is because she saw Jaime doing it over and over and over and getting away with it. Of course she followed suite, because obviously the more SPM she has on her projects, the more money she can make.

Mark S said, “Ask if he really burned his neighbors house when he was 10”

Yes. That story is in my book, my first book, which I promise you is coming soon because it’s already done, I just have to rewrite it; but I was a felon. I was actually charged with a felony, and was a felon at the age of 10 years old. I was not given time nor probation because of my age, only given a felony on my criminal record.

Anonymous asked, “Is it in your plans or have you thought about making a song about single fathers?”

Sure, why the hell not! Single fathers I find just as heartwarming and beautiful as single mothers. I think that it’s extremely commendable to take responsibility for your kids.

Ivan M. said, “Would you die a G , or build a dynasty ? I think both , but can you explain how you came up with this song or the story behind it , definitely top 5 of your songs ,stay safe & some prayers for you”

I think if I have built a dynasty, it’s not quite as grand as I’d like it to be. I feel that I’m just beginning, I feel like my story has just begun. I don’t even feel like I’ve given you guys anything close to 100%. I think that the screenplays that we’re working on, the documentaries, the books, all the projects and the leadership that God has given me is just still in the womb. Sure we’ve built somewhat of a dynasty, but we’re just getting started. I plan on doing much, much more with what God gave me. Don’t forget, a ‘G’ stands for Graduate of 2Gblank.

Incandesio: Wait, what?

            2…capital G…B-L-A-N-K. So fill it in.

Incandesio: I don’t understand.

            It’s on that song, ‘Addicted to Storms’. I say,

“I hope you tell me something good like the UGK

because the ‘G’ stands for graduate of 2Gblank”

Incandesio: I’ve heard the song, but that makes literally no sense to me.

            In other words, I’m telling ‘em the ‘G’ doesn’t stand for gangster, it stands for Graduate of 2Gblank, like 20__.

Incandesio: I don’t get it.

I’m telling them to graduate, then fill that in with whatever year you graduated in.

Incandesio: Oh…

            (laughing)

Incandesio: That’s an extremely esoteric reference, stop laughing at me.

            (still laughing) Am I laughing at you? I hope not. You know what, I’m not sure if other people would have got that either, maybe you should ask that question.